Hello world (: Im Alexis :D Well my life is one of a kind, its unique, its ABSOLUTELY ridiculous! But i will never bore you (:
-Alexis
That word.
“I believe in love, i actually fully believe in it. I just dont think it believes in me” Experince after experience has shown me that love, love is just a word that people throw around loosly to get what they want. Nobody knows the true meaning of it, nobody knows what that simple word can do to somebody. That word has kept me up night ater night crying until i had no tears left. That word has caused me to feel so alone and not good enough. Its been the reason for so many goodbyes and the reason ive stayed in my room for hours not wanting to see tomorrow. That word has become the reason i trusted people i never shouldve trusted. See the problem with people is as soon as you start to believe in them, they show you exactly why you shouldnt. Ive learned that the hardest thing to do is walk away from someone you love but sometimes its the only thing left to do. But there is that word again, believe in it or not… That word will always exsist and their will always be people who abuse it. “Next time ill be braver, ill be my own savior” - Adele. Next time….
-Alexis
Just give up
I may not know what it feels like to be loved, but i do know how it feels to love, i know how it feels to be disappointed, i know how it feels to have your heart broken. I cant risk being hurt all over again, i thought i could but i cant. Im not ready to give my all to someone who will give me nothing in the end. Right now it feels like im loving a ghost, someone whose not even there. “Should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements?”- Adele People please, understand that a girl can not wait forever! Love never always fails
-Alexis
Lost
And the main thing is.. I just feel lost. No one understands me, i dont understand myself. I cant make him stay and i cant make him stop!. The hardest part about knowing i dont matter to you is that you spent so much time pretending i did matter. Theres this world where everyone tries to be something their not, but i was always me. I never pretended and i never said stuff i didnt mean and the fact you can just walk away like none of it ever mattered makes me feel so lost.I cant keep up with it all and i cant keep it all under control. Ive got the world on my shoulders but im ready to set it down and walk away from it all even if that means walking away from you.
-Alexis
Im not clumsy, its just inanimate objects,the wall, and the ground are out to get me!
I am the clumsiest person ever!!! In this past week i have ran into a desk, fell off the chair at my kitchen table, stubbed my toe, my pen flew out of my hand and ninja’d the floor, stepped on his feet like a billion times, hit his arm hekka hard with my binder on accident, tripped on the edge of my bed and flew off like 20 miles, slipped in the shower, tripped on a chair in my class, ran into a girl and accidently punched her because i went around a corner too fast, poked my own eye, elbowed my bestfriend in the head!!! And thats to say the least D: People Please, i need to walk around life with a helmet!!!!
-Alexis
